this week

Let's see....what have we been up to this week? Christmas came and went, packed away for next yr; we had good visits with family and the usual chaos of unwrapping and losing toy parts at our house already; I didn't get the massage/pedi yet so that leaves me with Sat., the expiration date, to get it done. I'm not much on deadlines or schedules. But Kenny said the lady was just putting an expiration on there to get me to come in. I guess that's good because it really takes a lot to get me there.... there's so many other things to keep busy with....who has time for pampering? I like it when I get it, but for some reason it's hard to get there. Kenny's taking Laura and Brandon to a concert tomorrow night. They'll leave early and be home late. I'll have a little company so it won't be too bad. I don't like to be totally alone in this big house. I know they'll have fun though like they always do.

Last night, couldn't sleep again. Long story short, i ended up at the er for a little bit. Everything's fine though. Before all this, I was talking to Kenny late in the night as we usually do because it's the only quiet time around here. a couple hrs later we were headed up the road....and fast forward 6 hrs. came home again. Who would've thought?
A homeless lady was beside of me mentioning a lot of problems....chest pain, migraine, hep c issues, thought she might have had a broken ankle. Then she came out of the bathroom with her hospital gown removed and her street clothes on, ready to leave. The cleaning lady hollered out to the nurses and said she was taking out her i.v. A nurse kindly scolded her and told her I needed to put your insulin in your i.v....why'd you take it out? She sat back on the bed, crying and talking to herself a little bit. The nice dr. asked her if she wanted some breakfast before she left. It made me feel good that people are compassionate. Another lady was hollering out every so often, asking Jesus to help her. I felt sorry for her because she was so violently sick. Then there arrived an 87 y.o. man who couldn't breathe very well. He said he thought he was a goner that day, but he was laughing with his family as we left. Another day to laugh and enjoy each other. You just never know how things are going to go no matter who you are. it's humbling to have opportunity to realize a whole lot of things about fragility and the grip you have on life is never as sure as you think. One thing i know....its nice to have people care while you're here. That's why it made me happy for the lady beside me. For those few hrs. there were people who cared and showed concern no matter what she had been through in life. They were just being nice to another person, which is the right way to be. We're never alone, even though at times, it might feel like it. Maybe that's why nights are so hard

We came home and slept a while, and when I woke up the house was mostly empty of our children, who had gone to grandma's, except for Bran and Savannah. She's been hollering a lot lately and doesn't want me out of her sight. If she spots me from wherever she's at, I'm hers. She will not forget about me until I pick her up...but that's a good thing to be wanted. I sat on the chair by the fire and she was on my lap along with puppy. It's nice to know you're loved.

After I went to the dr. the other day, decided I'd go by and get Brandon his football he asked for. His old one is all beat up from throwing it so much. Thought I'd gotten one over Christmas but believe me, it's easy to forget what's already bought.....anyway, found him a nice one. The kids like their new video games. Ben got demolition-themed and racing; Bran got a war game Call of Duty, having fun fighting the enemy... they hooked up their x-box. Glad they're electronically gifted and have patience with it, because I just don't.

I can't believe a new year is a few days away. ok...these yrs are going by so fast. it seems like we just did this yesterday, doesn't it?.

Happy New Year if I don't get back before then.